Just when I thought things couldn't get worse

Is it just me or does anyone else feel like the universe takes immense pleasure in kicking you while you're down? Back in February I left my dead end serving job - I wasn't getting the hours I needed to pay my bills, and even when I did work I was not making nearly enough in tips to make it worth it. Since then, I have applied to at least 100 jobs (no exaggeration whatsoever according to my indeed profile, and that is only one of three job sites I have been using in the past four months), and of those 100 jobs I have yet to find somewhere to call my work home.

Now, that's not to say that I haven't tried. Oh, I've tried. In fact, I have made so many efforts to land a job that I love that I have lowered my standards more than once. I was made countless empty promises, falsely lead into believing I was landing my dream job, and promised a position that I am pretty sure to this day still does not actually exist. I do not know if Coronavirus or the state of the world for the past two years has anything to do with it, but it just does not seem like people care anymore. For the most part, I have not seen a single person actually passionate about what they do in I cannot even tell you how long.

Now I know what you're thinking. The restaurant industry is not somewhere any person should expect to find passion, but in my first few years in the industry I was at least surrounded by people that have pride in themselves and their work enough to put a little damn effort in here and there. But in the past few months I have found none of that. Instead I have been to countless places where almost every employee half-asses everything they do, and it makes me sad. Being close to graduating college (YAY!), I have been hoping to land a position in an office setting or something similar where I can start to get closer to finally starting my career, but I have not had any luck yet and it makes me wonder why in 2022 there's still a stigma around servers and the restaurant industry in general when it comes to professionalism. Then I remember my recent experiences and I think to myself, "yeah, I wouldn't hire half of these assholes either."